its always been you

It’s a dark hour; and I see your face
I close my eyes to escape this chase
The whirlwind from which I have never been able to retreat
Its always been you, yourself and I; common defeat
I want to run far far away
Because staying has always been to my dismay
But here I am smile no frown
Never able to decipher up from down
I sit and watch because it’s all I can do
I’ve learned the hard way I can’t choose for you
The emotions I hold tight, so tight they cannot breathe
These emotions I wish I didn’t have because life would be easier on me
Ring locked to my finger like oxygen to my lungs
This isn’t even what I’m trying to say… the words I’m looking for unsung
Sometimes I picture life; what is the opposite of low?
It requires being able to withstand hearing yes; yet still saying no
I feel like I could scream, like it would break the pain
But my mouth is bound shut and instead I sit in vain
Cry tears of frustration and I hope one day we see
And better person for all of this… a better you, a better me